Blue Skies and Depression

Had the crappiest day today. It was the worst kind of awful, you know? When it starts out fantastic and then suddenly plummets into despair, like you're bipolar or something. Or like you had too many bowls of Rice Krispies for breakfast, whichever.
Everything has been going my way lately. All my tests are made up, I have awesome friends, a group to go to the Winter Formal with, great clothes and halfway decent hair. I think I jinxed it though, cause I was running the mile in P.E.,looking at the blue sky and the sweaty runners, just thinking how lucky am I, completely oblivious to the upcoming despair that is...

Shawn. Has. A serious girlfriend.

Shawn's a senior I met in the library, with perfect eyes and great style. The first guy who's really caught my eye since I came to this school, cause I'm uber picky when it comes to dating. He's one of Danielle's friends, and no matter how absolutely shocked she was that I liked him, I still do. Her other friends were shocked too, because he's not classically cute. He's Stephanie Cute, which makes a huge difference because I tend to disregard looks when it comes to crushes I meet in the library. He's very sweet, the librarian said. Very interesting, my World History teacher said. Very taken, Danielle informed me.

I sulked all the way to Art class.

"Do you like, really want him, or do you just think he's cute?" Danielle asked as we trudged away from the library.

"I just think he's cute," I lied. Like I was telling Danielle I was half head over heels for I guy I had said two words too. ("Hello, Shawn.")

And he's supposedly "in love" with Tiffany. Tiffany, with the bad skin and frizzy hair, who wears baggy band T-shirts to school~! To make matters worse, I followed Danielle over to say hi to him and he had his arm around her, calling her cute right in front of me and not even looking my way. Because apparently it does not matter how cute I am, Tiffany's wonderful sense of style takes precedence.

I'm gushing, I know.

I just haven't liked a guy this much since I was a freshman.

And I'm sad...