It's like, BAZAM!

Arghh. Having your crush find out you like him is the second worst thing in the world, ya know?
The worst thing is nuclear war, but this runs a really close second.
Here is how it happened:
Danielle told her sister Kelly who told Shawn who wanted to see me. Met me. He asked Danielle if I would be at the library at lunch, and she said yes, and I bolted fastlikethis. Except I kind of really needed to turn in my book, and... I was curious. And nervous. And mad at certain sisters with gigantic mouths. So we went. And Danielle was like "Your going to talk to him," and I politely told her that that's just not how it works with me, and she said, "Try," and the librarian was all, "He's so sweet," and I sat down and read my book and waited. I must have read the same paragraph fifty thousand times.
He comes in. Danielle waves me over. I go up to the counter, which he is behind, helping out. He helps out at the library. Can vou say perfect match? I say, "What?" we talk quietly, while she tries to get me to say something to him. I refuse until I'm literally backing towards my book. I can't really remember what I said exactly, which is bad, especially considering Shawn was definitely listening. I sit down and "read." Danielle points me out to him, trying to get him to say something the same way she did me. Poor guy. He turns bright red, says, 'I think I should go now," and leaves. Leaves! D, of course, goes on and on about how he's never been that tongue tied, he must have liked me, blah blah blah. Whatev. HE LEFT. Doesn't that say everything?
I feel stupid. I hate feeling stupid.

I'll edit this later. Too depressed to spell check.